This is not what he imagines Pike's mind to feel like at all. It makes him give a mental shudder because it feels cold and sadistic and entirely unwelcoming. He struggles to find a foothold in a mind he's not supposed to touch, and it's like he's sinking through quicksand into a darkness he knows he can't fight.
Spock starts to open up the layers with reluctance. He knows what he needs. He has an idea where to get it. But he knows the mind is never a straightforward path, and the likelihood that he'll run into something he doesn't want to see is staggeringly high. Pike's probably got everything up at the surface, too, just from their short conversation, and the last thing he needs is to run into an image of himself-but-not. Just one more existential and identity crisis.
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[In the mind meld]
Date: 2009-07-25 06:38 pm (UTC)Spock starts to open up the layers with reluctance. He knows what he needs. He has an idea where to get it. But he knows the mind is never a straightforward path, and the likelihood that he'll run into something he doesn't want to see is staggeringly high. Pike's probably got everything up at the surface, too, just from their short conversation, and the last thing he needs is to run into an image of himself-but-not. Just one more existential and identity crisis.