He had not considered, until his first pon farr, what a true sharing of minds entailed. The terrible naked vulnerability of the connections he shared with Jim and Leonard - much less the finer tendrils of connection with the others...
At the time, relief coursing through him that Jim was not truly dead, that he had not in fact killed his best friend, Spock would have said that there was no justification for the weakness that accompanied such ties. He surveyed the landscape of this Christopher Richard Pike's mind - this was the result of a bonding. This pain, this loss, this encroaching madness.
But he had spent too many years watching his parents, their secret glances with touching fingers. And this mind through which he traveled was also the result of the bond, shaped by it, sustained and preserved by it in a world that would brook no weakness in its alpha predators. And his own bonds...
He had collapsed. As a Star Fleet officer that alone should have been enough to convince Spock that the bonds were a bad idea. But he would not be the man he was, the officer he was, without the relationships he had with his t'hy'lara and there was no altering that.
Greater than the sum of their parts. The bonds made them more than they were on their own. The same seemed to be true for this Pike and his Spock. Together, they created something out of nothing, out of less than nothing. That was worth preserving.
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Date: 2009-09-12 07:13 pm (UTC)At the time, relief coursing through him that Jim was not truly dead, that he had not in fact killed his best friend, Spock would have said that there was no justification for the weakness that accompanied such ties. He surveyed the landscape of this Christopher Richard Pike's mind - this was the result of a bonding. This pain, this loss, this encroaching madness.
But he had spent too many years watching his parents, their secret glances with touching fingers. And this mind through which he traveled was also the result of the bond, shaped by it, sustained and preserved by it in a world that would brook no weakness in its alpha predators. And his own bonds...
He had collapsed. As a Star Fleet officer that alone should have been enough to convince Spock that the bonds were a bad idea. But he would not be the man he was, the officer he was, without the relationships he had with his t'hy'lara and there was no altering that.
Greater than the sum of their parts. The bonds made them more than they were on their own. The same seemed to be true for this Pike and his Spock. Together, they created something out of nothing, out of less than nothing. That was worth preserving.
We request entrance, Christopher Richard Pike.